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Status Report:

Too much work to do.
Awake since 5am.
Need a shit.

permalink yeah, basically
permalink Friday edit
Tell you what, don't have a 2 hour meeting with ophthalmologists when you've got a hangover.
permalink that's easy for
you to say
permalink Cloudy.
3 jobs stalled for reasons.
Tea & Banana
optional hula hoops.

Black Calvins.
permalink Tea and banana!
In a Cock-er-knee stylee
permalink Bless yer sister
permalink rainy rainy rain rain
on train to edinburgh to waffle about energy policy

generally feeling quite good, it's taken me a good while to recover from my operation last year but suddenly these past few weeks I seem to have got my mojo back for the first time in probably a couple of years. While I've never suffered from depression, I can empathise with some of the stuff below from realising how much harder everything is when just doing day-to-day existing needs considered effort
permalink Damaged
Went to the doctor todey as my tonsillitis didn't go away by lying on the sofa for a day. Am on penicillin.
permalink end of the working week for me
not been the most productive one,
planted some seeds in the new greenhouse
might go for a cycle tomorrow.
are you around this weekend ? boozes in E17 on satuday night.
permalink This is a Scotland weekend for me...
I think I'll be working in any odd moments that make themselves available.
permalink I have been much better for a couple of days
but tonight I am suddenly descending in to darkness.

How do I stop that occurring?
permalink replace the cellar lightbulb?
sorry, I don't know. But isn't that the sort of thing CBT is for?
permalink I don't know
I have not had my first appointment yet.
permalink Recognizing it's happening
is already helpful. You could try the basics, exercise, eating well, time with the girls.
permalink Although if we're talking this evening specifically
ummmm.... Call the Samaritans?
permalink they are very good
they still get a direct debit for being very good
permalink ??
permalink know what?
you don't. You see it's happening, and you learn to work out the light at the end of the tunnel. It's shit, but it's coping, it's grim. I almost collapsed in tears in the office today, who fucking knows.

Tell you what, come to Cambridge, let's get drunk, Al will tell you about bike lanes, Witchy might come out, you might hate us, we might hate you, but the Thai place near the Elm Tree is pretty good.
permalink Sounds like you
might need to go to the doctor too....
permalink I've been
They're very good, I'm generally ok and coming out of my funk.
permalink Well, if you ever need to vent
we are very used to it and really do not mind.
permalink Tbis
But not next weekend.

Also we can probably hook in a mushybees if she's available.
permalink That would be cool some time.
The difficulty is in getting time off - when I am not working I tend to be at home.
permalink Understandably
See if you can add a day to a London trip. We're close
permalink I am often in London, obviously - I seldom stay if I can help it, however.
I meet Mushybees in town occasionally.
permalink usually you give a 1hr warning/umbrella
sometimes i've thought "i'll meet the cunt and one look at me he'll realise his problems don't amount to shit"
then i look at the posting and you've probably already pissed off
permalink It is the nature of the beast.
If I knew I had 4 hours ahead of schedule then I'd go home instead.

I also know that I have it good - I have literally everything I ever wanted.

Can you imagine how hopeless life seems when you have everything you ever wanted and it is still this dark?
permalink If you give me warning for Cambridge
I might be able to train it over. Maybe even bring the broken one if its afternoon to evening.
permalink certainly make a change
Is bees a she? I missed this completely. I don't believe we're Facebook/Twitter chums
permalink Its a choice
she has made. Damn sight better at makeup than I am too.
permalink I had assumed that "they/them"
was the appropriate pronoun.
Am I incorrect?
permalink well yes
but if that is what that person has chosen. I go by that.
permalink or I followed Al's lead
permalink Bees told me that she wants she / her.
My eldest child uses 'they'.

I find 'they' really hard - I cannot hear it as a singular and I get things wrong (like refuse to collect because I had only one empty seat in the car, once). I am working on this.
permalink Here you go:

permalink Oh, cool
That's pretty explicit.

If there's ever any doubt which pronoun is appropriate I try to use they, but it's very hard indeed, I agree. Maybe society will change language in time so future humans don't find it sounds so odd.
So it's nice when people are clear.
I'd seen the t-shirt, but I'd not seen her wearing it filled in!
permalink Yeah, I find they a terrible choice, to be honest.
I try and do what people like, but they already had a meaning and I wish my child had chosen something entirely new.

We have a deal. I do not care how they identify, but in exchange they have to tolerate an old man getting the pronouns wrong sometimes.
permalink my neice had a bit of this for a while
seems to have settled down a bit now....

now the problem is she wants to leave school at 16.
permalink I knew about the frocks
I didn't realise there was more to it. Fair enough.
permalink But then she needs to be, my dear.
*flutters eyelashes*
permalink oh you cad
*lightly punches in arm*
getting so close to 40 I'm not so sure. Still I don't have to look at this fizzog. :) other people do
permalink she switched her facebook over
and facebook does have neutral options, so she it is.
permalink Indeed.
I am non binary on Facebook.
permalink Very sunny, bee-yow-tee-full late summer/early autumn* day
Lots of work to do, but the really shitty bit of the week is over, where I needed to pull both a poster and a talk out of thin air. Which was achieved yesterday, when I was awake from 2:30am.

Today is a bit more chilled, was woken from a deep sleep at 6:45 by the alarm. Had a swim, have done some light work. Just been out for lunch. Mrs C returns from Auckland this evening too, which is nice.

*delete according to your preference
permalink Plus I am "working" whilst having the cricket on on my phone
off to the side. Of course, I'd much rather have taken the day off and gone and watched it in person, as it is being played just down the road, and sat in the sun drinking beer
permalink not looking forward to my next call with my mum
she's going to go on and on about that bloody dog shooting

it was obviously tripping on some spice/bath salts blahblah
permalink busy morning
coffee machine broken but milk and very large double chocolate cookie consumed.

worried about getting up early* tomorrow for a run to park run, then park run (first ever) and run home.

*before 9 because its just WRONGE on a weekend.
permalink i dare you to wheelchair to the park
run the park
then wheelchair back home
permalink I don't at this
current time have access to a wheelchair. I do however have a bike and that sounds even better because I'm tired now after a run at lunch today.
permalink I did my first Parkrun in about 9 months just now
It was quite hard...and humid. And I got my traditional sandfly bites afterwards
permalink But definitely recommend
Parkrun is awesome. Total mix of abilities, very supportive
permalink was considering going tomorrow
but, as is the usual problem, that involves putting down this bottle of rum right now
permalink Ha!
As I was collecting Mrs C from the airport last night, followed by dinner, this limited my drinking enough to make it work. It's the 32k long training run tomorrow I ain't looking forwards to!
permalink PARKRUN!
permalink Yeah about that
Legs are really feeling it. I've done 500 over calorie goal every day since 23rd Feb and I'm trying to nail this month. It's killing me sporting or walking (far) to hit goals every day.
permalink A week yesterday I put the cat out
and he didn't go round to come in via the catflap. That meant he couldn't make it over the small fence between the front door and the catflap.

The day after he lost mobility. He spent the weekend laid in front of the fire being fed icepops and being cleaned regularly.

We had him put down on Monday.

We got a sympathy card from our vets, which was lovely.
permalink awww bugger
poor kitty,... sounds like it was reasonably swift though, my mate just had a long drawn out trauma over months.

out little bugger is now 10, chris barker (who's board name i forget, he was in the catermoles) got an almost identical cat the same month, i must check he's still kicking around
permalink Dr Dunno
permalink :(
so sorry. poor kitty.

our vets do lovely things like that too. Plus a lovely box with the ashes in.